Tuesday, February 5, 2008

VALENTINE'S, SICKNESS ALONG WITH COPS... WHAT A GREAT MIX!!!

TODAY IS ANOTHER DAY OF THE YEAR THAT IS GOING TO BE MY NEW BEGININING, WELL IT SEEMS TO ME THAT IT REALLY IS GOING TO BE A NEW BEGININING - NOT ONLY FOR ME BUT ALSO FOR JOSH AS WELL... WELL JOSH IS EMPLOYED WITH MOSELY'S AND SONS AND HE HAS THE TITLE OF HELPER, THIS IS A GREAT JOB FOR HIM RIGHT NOW.. IT SEEMS TO ME THAT HE HAS AN INCREASED LEVEL OF SELF ESTEEM AND HE IS ENJOYING SPOILING ME... HEY I AM NOT COMPLAINING IT ACTUALLY FEELS REALLY GOOD THAT HE IS TAKING CARE OF ME...

YESTERDAY WAS THE 5TH AND WAS MY INTERVIEW WITH ALEX AT BUILDING PROFESSIONALS.. WELL LETS JUST SAY IT WENT GREAT, I AM NOW GOING TO BE EMPLOYED BY BUILDING PROFESSIONALS AND TO BE HONEST I REALLY AM CLUELESS ON WHAT MY JOB TITLE IS GOING TO BE BUT THERE ARE SEVERAL JOBS THAT ARE ON THE PLATE AND THE ONE THAT HAS BEEN SELECTED SPECIFICALLY FOR ME IS MOST DIFFICULT BUT IT IS ALSO GOING TO BE THE ONE WITH THE BEST PAY SO THEREFOR I AM NOT COMPLAINING...

WELL, NOT TO PUT A SORE THUMB IN THE BUNCH BUT IT JUST SEEMS TO ME THAT EVERYTIME THAT THERE IS SOME TYPE OF GET TOGETHER DEAL WITH FOOD JUSTIN AND SHEENA SEEM TO CRASH THE PARTY... JOSH AND I DECIDED TONIGHT THAT WE WOULD PAY FOR EVERYONE TO EAT STEAKS AS LONG AS WE DON'T HAVE TO COOK... WELL THAT IS THE THING JUSTIN RECIEVED HIS STEREO TODAY AND NOW HE IS GOING TO COME HOME AND PLAY WITH IT... WELL LIKE I SAID THE AGREEMENT WAS THAT WE PAY FOR THE FOOD AND JUSTIN AND SHEENA COOKED WELL THAT IS UNDERSTANDABLE SINCE JOSH JUST SPENT $100.00 ON ALL THE FOOD FOR JUST TONIGHT.. WELL THAT SEEMED TO BE AN ISSUE WITH JUSTIN AND SHEENA... ALL THEY WANTED TO DO WAS COOK THE STEAKS.. WELL CINDY COOKED THE POTATOES AND UNFORTUNATELY SHE DIDN'T MAKE ENOUGH THAT WAS NO BIG DEAL JUST MAKE MORE... WELL IT IS AN ISSUE FOR JUSTIN AND SHEENA TO COOK THE POTATOES WHILE JOSH AND I TOOK A SHOWER WELL FUCK IT... YOU KNOW THIS SITUATION SHOULDN'T OF BEEN SUCH A BIG DEAL BUT BETWEEN TWO HARD HEADED MEN IT WAS A GIANT SITUATION.. SO THEREFOR BOTH OF THE GUYS WERE IN THERE BEDROOMS COMPLAINING TO THERE WOMEN, WHO REALLY THINK THAT IT WAS JUST SOME STUPID BULL SHIT AND COULD OF BEEN SOLVED WITH JUST SOME OTHER IDEA LIKE MAYBE I MAKE THE POTATOES OR MAYBE EVEN JOSH'S MOM... TO BE HONEST I REALLY DON'T THINK IT WOULD OF MATTERED BUT IT IS TOO LATE NOW... WELL THAT IS ENOUGH OF THAT NONSENSE...

WELL THE HARRIS COUNTY POLICE DEPARTMENT HELPED MY MOTHER ONCE AGAIN BUT THIS TIME IT WAS FOR THE REAL DEAL... SEAN MY SISTERS DREADFUL BOYFRIEND IS NOW OUT OF THE SITUATION WELL... NOW THAT IT HAS BEEN A FEW DAYS SINCE I THIS COP THING HAS OCCURED I HAVE NOW INTRODUCED MY SISTER INTO SOMEONE THAT I KNEW FROM HIGH SCHOOL SEVERAL YEARS AGO AND TO MY MOTHER IT SEEMS THAT THEY ARE HITTING IT OFF PRETTY WELL... I AM JUST PRAYING THAT THIS GUY IS NOT BAD WITH DRUGS AND ANYMORE DRAMA FOR MY SISTERS LIFE SHE HAS REALLY BEEN THROUGH ALOT IN THE PAST YEAR.. WITH MY PARENTS DIVORCE AND DRUGS AND NOW SEAN AND HIS FAMILIES BULL SHIT.. ALL SHE WOULD NEED IS ANOTHER DUD IN HER LIFE... BUT WE ARE ALL TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE AND THAT IS THE BEST WAY TO BE IN ANY SITUATION..

WELL, SORRY I HAVE NOT WRITTEN AT ALL IN THE PAST FEW DAYS BUT UNFORTUNATELY I HAVE BEEN VERY SICK AND IT WAS NOT GETTING ANY BETTER IT JUST SEEMED TO ME THAT THE MORE I COUGHED THE SICKER I WAS GETTING BUT THAT IS BESIDES THE POINT.. I AM ALSO ASSUMING THAT I AM NO LONGER EMPLOYED WITH CERTIFIED SECURITY PLUS, INC. DUE TO MY ABSENCES IN THE PAST FEW DAYS BUT TO BE HONEST WITH YOU I REALLY HAVE BEEN SICK AND ALL THEY ARE CARING ABOUT IS PUNISHING ME SOME MORE JUST LIKE THEY DID THE FIRST TIME I GOT SICK.. I ENDED UP TAKING MORE THAN ONE DAY OFF BECAUSE THEY DECIDED THAT IT WAS JUSTIFIED THAT I WAS TO BE PUNISHED FOR MY ABSENCES.. WHICH IS BULL SHIT IN ALL MEANS.. I DON'T CARE WHOM YOU ARE YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT TO PUNISH SOMEONE FOR BEING SICK.. THAT IS ONLY BECAUSE BEING SICK IS ALREADY ENOUGH PUNISHMENT...

THAT IS GOING TO BE THE CLOSE OF THE DAY AND I SHALL WRITE AGAIN..

ELIZABETH SIGNING OUT!!!

Thursday, January 31, 2008

NOW THAT I AM BUMMED!!!

*~THINGS WILL GET BETTER IN TIME, JUST READ ON... IT IS THE UNIVERSE AND HOW IT SEEMS TO ALL COME TOGETHER~*


TODAY WAS A GREAT DAY AS IT STARTED... BUT I AM SURE YOU ALL KNOW THAT WHEN YOU ARE HAVING A WONDERFUL DAY SOMETHING COMES UP AND TRYS TO BRING YOU DOWN... WELL THAT IS TODAY MY FRIEND... ONE BUMMED OUT DAY...

WELL THE DAY STARTED AS I WOKE UP LATE AND ENDED UP BEING SLIGHTLY LATE FOR WORK... THUS, THIS WAS OUT OF MY HANDS..JOSH WAS HAVING A HELL OF A DAY ALREADY AT MR. ARTHUR'S AND I WAS CRASHED OUT ON THE BED SO.. I AM SURE YOU GET THE PICTURE... WELL ANYWAYS, I MANAGED TO COME TO WORK AND START OUT THE COLD DAY WITH PREPARING THE PAPER WORK THAT WOULD ACCOMPLISH THE SECOND AND THIRD SHIFTS... THERE ARE SOME NEW POLICIES AT MY JOB ABOUT HAVING TO WRITE DOWN EACH AND EVERY DOOR THAT I CHECK AND LOCK THROUGH OUT THE EIGHT HOUR SHIFT... WELL THAT IS NO BIG DEAL EVENTUALLY THE POLICY WILL BE GONE ANYWAYS.. MY BOSS HAS A TENDENCY OF MAKING THINGS REALLY HARD ON EVERYONE FOR ABOUT A WEEK OF EVERY MONTH.. I AM JUST USE TO IT BY NOW... WELL, I WAS OCCUPIED AT ABOUT FIVE PM.. GETTING MY LITTLE GOLF CART READY TO ROLL AND THEN THE OWNER OF THE FACILITY THAT I WORK AT PULLS UP IN HIS SOUPED UP SUPRA... THIS IS SOMETHING THAT IS NOT EVEN A CAR AT THIS POINT IT IS STRAIGHT DRAG RACING VEHICLE.. WELL I INTRODUCED MYSELF AND WENT ON MY MERRY WAY AFTER SEEING THE FACT THAT THERE WAS ABOUT TWO MILLION WORTH OF SHIT BEHIND MY JOB.. THIS HAS BEEN UNDER MY NOSE THE WHOLE TIME AND I AM HERE ALMOST EVERYDAY... WELL THAT IS BESIDES THE FACT OF MY DAY.. I CALLED JOSH TO TELL HIM ABOUT MY ENCOUNTERING WITH THE MAN AND BY THE TIME I COULD EVEN SPEAK HE GOT FRUSTRATED AND HUNG UP ON ME... NOTHING STRANGE FOR HIM TO DO, THIS IS AN EVERYDAY ACCURANCE.. WELL THAT WAS THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG... HE DECIDES ABOUT 15 MINUTES AFTER HANGING UP ON ME TO CALL ME BACK AND HIT ME WITH THE FACT THAT OUR BANK ACCOUNT IS NEGATIVE $13.00 SO NOW I CAN BE PREPARED FOR OVERDRAFT FEES... WE ALL LOVE THOSE... WELL THAT IS JUST ADDING TO THE FACT THAT MY CAR NOTE HAS NOT BEEN PAID AND I UP THE ROOF WITH THAT ALREADY AND THEN THE WATER WORKS COME IN... I AM HAVING AN EMOTIONAL OVERLOAD.. I HAVEN'T EATEN ALL DAY AND NOW I AM BEING TOLD THAT I AM BROKE AND HAVE NOT PAID MY BILLS.. I JUST LOVE THE SOUND OF HOW SHIT IS HITTING THE FAN.. WELL, IN TURN I CALL MY MOTHER.. AND SHE IS NOT SO SUPPORTIVE BUT SHE REALLY TRIED... I AM NOT REALLY WANTING TO BE HANDED MONEY OR ANYTHING.. I AM JUST BREAKING DOWN BECAUSE I AM WORKING AND I AM NOT MOVING FORWARD IN ANYWAY... WELL SHE HUNG UP WITH ME AND THAT WAS GOING TO BE THAT... BUT THEN I GET A PHONE CALL FROM MY FATHER AND HE IS TELLING ME THE SAME BULLSHIT DIFFERENT DAY.. GET ANOTHER PLACE TO LIVE AND I WILL HELP YOU ..BLAH BLAH BLAH.... YOU KNOW YOU CAN NOT LIVE OFF OF $7.50 AN HOUR IT JUST DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY.. WELL.. I DIDN'T TELL HIM THAT BUT ONE OF THESE DAYS I WOULD LOVE TO EXPLAIN TO HIM HOW IT REALLY IS IN MY WORLD... NOT THE WORLD IN WHICH HE LIVES IN.. WELL.... COME TO FIND OUT MY MOTHER TOLD MY FATHER THAT I WAS DOWN.. AND THAT HE NEEDED TO CALL ME.. AND IT JUST COMES TO FIND OUT THAT WHEN HE ASKED HOW I WAS I TOLD HIM... I AM JUST TIRED OF BILLS...PAYING BILLS AND THEN YOU HAVE MORE BILLS AND THEN AT THE END OF YOUR CHECK YOU AIN'T GOT SHIT FOR YOURSELF.. IT SUCKS AND I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO ENJOY IT AT ALL...IT IS LIKE GETTING FUCKED IN THE ASS BUT THIS TIME IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD....

WELL, AFTER THIS WHOLE DURATION OF CONVERSATIONS BETWEEN MY MOTHER AND MY FATHER BACK AND FORWARD.. I HAD ENDED UP WITH A GREAT JOB AVAILABLE TO ME.. $2.50 MORE THAN WHAT I AM MAKING NOW AND BENEFITS.. WHICH I DO NOT HAVE AND GAS/VEHICLE EXPENENSE PAID FOR... I LOVE IT THIS IS GOING TO BE THE BEGININING TO LIFE GETTING BETTER.. I KNEW THIS YEAR WAS GOING TO BE A GREAT YEAR.. IT IS JUST TAKING SOME TIME AND I NEED TO BE PATIENT.. THE UNIVERSE IS ALIGNING IN MY DIRECTION AND I SHOULD BE THANKFUL...


*~I LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD AND THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME WHEN I WAS SO BUMMED TODAY!!!~*

Sunday, January 27, 2008

NOW THAT IS STRANGE!!!

IT IS STRANGE TO SEE HOW YOU CAN JUST OPEN YOURSELF UP TO THE WHOLE WORLD AND NOT EVEN BAT AND EYE.. I AM PRESENTING THIS BLOG FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME TODAY AND I AM THAT MUCH MORE EXCITED TO BRING MYSELF ALL THAT MORE OF ATTENTION AND COMMUNICATION WITH THE WORLD AS WE SPEAK. NOW, I AM SURE THAT YOU ALL KNOW THAT WHEN YOU LIVE YOUR DAY TO DAY LIVES THAT IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO OBTAIN FRIENDSHIP AND RELATIONSHIPS, WE ARE NOT IN HIGH SCHOOL ANY MORE-I AM REFERING BACK A FEW YEARS FOR ME BUT STILL I AM 20 YEARS OLD AND I HAVE BEEN OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL FOR 4 YEARS AND I AM NOTICING THAT I AM NOT COMMUNICATING LIKE I USE TO IN SCHOOL... I ASSUME THAT IT IS EASIER TO COMMUNICATE WHEN YOU ARE NOT WORKING A FULL TIME JOB, JUGGLING BILLS, AND TRYING TO GET THAT LITTLE BIT OF EXTRA TIME IN SO WHEN YOUR CHECK COMES IN YOU WILL HAVE SOME SPENDING MONEY... I DO NOT REALLY HAVE TIME TO GO TO A CLUB OR A BAR TO MEET SOMEONE AND TO BE HONEST WITH YOU THERE IS NO POINT IN REALLY TRYING TO DO THAT ESPECIALLY IF YOU DON'T WANT TO DRINK YOUR LIFE AWAY.. AND THAT IS WHAT A BAR OR CLUB IS USING ALCOHOL TO CONVERSATE AND BRING PEOPLE TO YOU.. REALLY SEEMS REDICULOUS BECAUSE WHEN YOU OR ANYONE GETS INTOXICATED PEOPLE BECOME BELIGERANT AND IGNORANT AND END UP MAKING A FOUL OUT OF THEMSELVES.. REALLY DOESN'T MAKE SINCE NOW DOES IT?

NOW, THAT MAJORITY OF THE POPULATION USES DRINKING AS THERE OPENING TOWARDS SOCIETY, THOSE FEW THAT CHOOSE NOT TO DRINK OFTEN HAVE TO PICK SOMETHING ELSE THAT IS ENTERTAINING AND THAT WILL BRING THEM OUT TO PUBLIC. LAST NIGHT, JOSH, HIS FAMILY AND I WENT OUT TO BARNEY'S WHICH IS A SALOON/BILLARD.. WELL YES ALCOHOL IS A BIG THING IN THAT PLACE AS WELL BUT AT LEAST THERE CAN BE SOME TYPE OF CONVERSATIONAL PEICE.. PLAYING POOL... NOW REMEMBER I AM THE BABY OF THE GROUP SO EVERYONE ELSE GRABS A DRINK AND ENJOYS THEMSELVES AND THAT IS THAT... BUT I TOOK NOTICE IN SOMETHING, THE PEOPLE THAT I WAS WITH DID NOT COME TO DRINK TO GET DRUNK... AND THIS IS EITHER ONE-BECAUSE THE PRICES WHERE SO DAMN HIGH OR PLAYING POOL WAS MORE ON THERE MINDS-NOT GETTING PLASTER AS THEY STUMB AROUND THE TABLE.. AND THIS MY FRIEND SEEM MORE REASONABLE THAN TRYING YOUR BEST AT A BAR TO MEET FRIENDS.. SO THAT LEADS TO ANOTHER QUESTION.. HOW IS A BAR A SOCIAL GATHERING IF EVERYONE WHOM IS THERE IS CONCENTRATING ON THOSE WHOM THEY HAVE WITH THEM? SO IS A BAR OR CLUB A SOCIAL GATHERING? AND IF NOT WHAT IS? WHERE DO YOU MEET MORE PEOPLE?

I AM PROPOSING TODAY THAT I USE THE INTERNET AS MY SOCIAL GATHERING OF THE TIME.. MOST PEOPLE STAY TO BUSY TO OBTAIN A MEANINGFUL TIME WITH ANYONE WHOM THEY ARE PROSUMED TO MEET IN THE NEAR FUTURE... SO THEREFORE I AM SAYING THAT THE INTERNET HAS ACTUALLY BROUGHT THE WORLD TOGETHER BUT SEPERATE AT THE SAME TIME.. IT IS EASIER TO COME HOME AND CHAT ON THE COMPUTER THAN IT IS TO GET DRESSED AND GO TO A BAR ON A REGULAR BASIS.. OH, AND NOT TO MENTION THE FACT THAT IT IS CHEAPER...

BUT THIS LEADS TOWARDS ANOTHER TOPIC... IF YOU ARE SINGLE AND YOU REALLY DON'T HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE OTHER THAN YOUR JOB THAN CAN YOU REALLY FOLLOW THE POLITICALLY CORRECT WAY OF DOING THINGS... I AM REFERING TO CO-WORKERS.. SHOULD YOU KEEP THEM JUST A PEOPLE YOU WORK WITH OR CAN THEY BECOME SOMEONE YOU ENJOY YOUR TIME WITH? HOW MANY PEOPLE DO YOU THINK WORK AND DON'T THINK ABOUT HAVING SEX WITH THERE CO-WORKERS OR EVEN THINK ABOUT GOING OUT TO HAVE FUN WITH?... THIS QUESTION WORKS FOR BOTH SINGLE AND NOT!!!

THIS IS NOTHING BUT CONVERSATION THAT INTEREST ME.. I AM THINKING HOW PEOPLE REALLY GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THAT LITTLE RULE OF NOT SLEEPING WITH THERE CO-WORKERS OR USING THERE JOB AS A SOCIAL MARKING?

STAYING WITH IN THE LINES...
THERE ARE SEVERAL BOOKS IN WHICH HELP YOU AND OTHERS TO OBTAIN WHAT THEY WANT IN LIFE... WHO MOVED MY CHEESE.... THE SECRET ... AND DON'T EAT THE MARSHMELLOWS YET... I HAVE READ TO OUT OF THE THREE AND TO KEEP WITH IN THE LINES OF THE BOOKS I AM NEEDING A REFRESHER EVERY SO OFTEN SO NOW I AM READING AGAIN TO GET MYSELF BACK ON TO A POSITIVE WAY OF LIFE... AND NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAY TO YOU IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO STAY POSITIVE ALL THE TIME... I WILL COMMENT BACK ABOUT MY FUTURE SITUATION- THUS BEING AFTER I REREAD THE BOOK....